I hope that the wonderful memories of the last 19 years with Charlie that are flooding back will help you with your grief. It does sound like you did the right thing - I know that didn't make it any easier though.
I had to put my 14 yr old and 16 yr old dogs to sleep withing 3 weeks of each other. I agree with the other poster - that is the hardest thing I have ever done.
I'm sorry to hear of your loss. They are so much a part of your family....I thought I would send this your way.
A PET'S TEN COMMANDMENTS
1. My life is likely to last 10-15 years. Any separation from you is likely to be painful.
2. Give me time to understand what you want of me.
3. Place your trust in me.. It is crucial for my well-being.
4. Don't be angry with me for long and don't lock me up as punishment. You have your work, your friends, your entertainment, but I have only you.
5. Talk to me. Even if I don't understand your words, I do understand your voice when speaking to me.
6. Be aware that however you treat me, I will never forget it.
7. Before you hit me, before you strike me, remember that I could hurt you, and yet, I choose not to bite you.
8. Before you scold me for being lazy or uncooperative, ask yourself if something might be bothering me. Perhaps I'm not getting the right food, I have been in the sun too long, or my heart might be getting old or weak.
9. Please take care of me when I grow old. You too, will grow old.
10. On the ultimate difficult journey, go with me please. Never say you can't bear to watch. Don't make me face this alone. Everything is easier for me if you are there, because I love you so.
~Take a moment today to thank God for your pets. Enjoy and take good care of them.
Life would be a much duller, less joyful experience without God's critters.
hugs to you! Had to let my pomeranian go wait for me at the bridge too. but somehow my toes are still warm while I'm typing (she always sat on them!) and my grandson "sees" her at least once a week. I think of her eveery time I put black pants on--will NEVER get rid of those blond hairs! so charlie please say hi to jasmine for me!